(from Wednesday night: thanks Elizabeth T.!)
Hopefully not a final post (full text)
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This may be the last post I do for a bit. But not for any bad reason.
We’re going to move from here sometime tonight and then head to a new safe haven. We’ll still be close by … but … enough details about that!
I’m hoping that the next place will have secure internet access so I can go on posting. Maybe even I will be able to use skype …. I dunno …
If not, I really hope it has some books! Just in case, I spent a lot of time today downloading a mountain of e-books – free ones mainly – so at least if that’s the case, I can read (serious books, silly books … I downloaded all the available Edgar Rice Burroughs and H P Lovecraft as well as all of Gibbon (Bury edition) and a lot of randomly interesting titles …
(by the way, a tip to readers – a series I’ve really enjoyed (and no, I can’t download it for free!) in recent years is a thing called “The Merchant Princes” by a guy named Charlie Stross …. It’s fascinating for a lot of reasons but one for me personally was that I could strongly relate to the main character, Miriam Beckstein; she’s an ordinary middle class American professional … who at the same time is embroiled from birth in inter-clan struggles in the Kingdom of Gruinmarkt and there are wheels within wheels within wheels …
anyway, I’m babbling …
being cooped up alone with your father for days, no telephone, can’t go out … my beloved unreachable except by internet (and yes, more than a little horny and can’t do anything about it) … argh …
and scared and worried
for me, for my dad, for my country …
serious repression in Homs … and more deaths. I read over a martyrs’ list; I saw people with our surname on it. I don’t know them, but my dad knew how they were our cousins and to what degree …
I want freedom for all Syria …
I want to be somewhere that mattters … though nowhere matters more than being here, now …
I have travel plans for later on in the year: in June, I plan to be in Italy, in August in the USA and Canada, in September in the UK … before all this started I got accepted into grad school in the UK …
But all those plans may be on hold; I won’t leave Syria until I know I can come back in … and who knows when that will be …
I want this to end; I’ve waited all my life for it to end. And now I discover that the worst thing about living in a revolution is that it is like the last day before vacation in elementary school … it never ends …
Anyway, I am babbling … I hope to be back blogging soon!
3 comments:
Amina you have a strong contingent in Australia following your country's struggle. Our thoughts are with you - may Syria rise from the ashes of revolution and freedom reign.
Hi, my name is Mihael from Croatia, it's not far from Belgrade (heard you mention it in one post).
I made an article about your story :) for the portal I am writing. I am new at writing and your story is a Particle Of Light that I searched. (searched the feeling what I wanted to write about politics-foreign politics)
http://www.politika.hr/politika/vanjska-politika/3054-gay-djevojka-u-damasku-postaje-nacionalna-heroina-sirijskog-pokreta
It is on Croatian but it's simillar to an article from Huffington post about you.Ok, it's the same, I just translated it. But I liked it.. :P so it's ok.
„An out Syrian lesbian's thoughts on life, the universe and so on...“
Didn't get to the part about the Universe, looking foward of reeding it.
When I think of you and your situation, comes to mind a book that I feel you should try to read. It is Celestine prophecy from John Redfield.(One of the most important books for me) It can help you on your journey, and if you have any questions you can write to me anytime. My e-mail celik.sb@gmail.com.
The book in pdf, you can save it on your comp.
http://yogahui.files.wordpress.com/2010/08/the-celestine-prophecy.pdf
You want freedom and joy for Syria, remember... it's all in the journey. Live now that joy and spread that feeling to them.Your vision... Lots of love, your Mihael. :)
you live in Homs?
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